+
The hardest part is you left
with out putting up a fight
leaving me alone
with my tears,
wishing you would come back
and make it right.
-L.C.A
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Charmer.
+
If your purpose in life
Is to leave the ones whom you charmed
Hanging
On a line of thorns
Blood
Cold
Dark and numb
Tears can't empty out the feelings
Inside my heart
How is it you can walk away
So effortlessly
And not for one second look back
And say goodbye
Without you
My heart is only left
To cry
Faced down on a floor of
Broken lies
Hugging my knees
Wet warm breath
Dripping down my trembling legs
I can't move
Don't want to move
Breathing becomes
A gift
For the knots in my chest
Paralyze anything that's left.
If your purpose in life
Is to leave the ones whom you charmed
Hanging
On a line of thorns
Blood
Cold
Dark and numb
Tears can't empty out the feelings
Inside my heart
How is it you can walk away
So effortlessly
And not for one second look back
And say goodbye
Without you
My heart is only left
To cry
Faced down on a floor of
Broken lies
Hugging my knees
Wet warm breath
Dripping down my trembling legs
I can't move
Don't want to move
Breathing becomes
A gift
For the knots in my chest
Paralyze anything that's left.
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Broken Frame
+
All I've ever known
Is the day you fade away.
I can feel it coming
From a mile away
Every time I think I'm prepared
I fall right out from under my chair
Please don't leave me
I just don't understand
When all I ever needed was the love
Of a man.
They walk the path of my father
Present in his own self-disorder
And I'd wonder why you had me for your daughter
When all I ever needed was the love from a father
All my insecurities trouble me
Leaving me stranded
Alone
Waiting for my heart to find a home.
They say your family is your core
But for me its been nothing but
A huge sore.
Blisters burst and out come men
Finding me in places I don't even know where to begin.
So the pattern continues and I learn to look within
To find my truth
And the journey of these men
For I am the jagged picture in a busted broken frame.
And all my past lovers
Are nothing but the same.
-L.C.A.
All I've ever known
Is the day you fade away.
I can feel it coming
From a mile away
Every time I think I'm prepared
I fall right out from under my chair
Please don't leave me
I just don't understand
When all I ever needed was the love
Of a man.
They walk the path of my father
Present in his own self-disorder
And I'd wonder why you had me for your daughter
When all I ever needed was the love from a father
All my insecurities trouble me
Leaving me stranded
Alone
Waiting for my heart to find a home.
They say your family is your core
But for me its been nothing but
A huge sore.
Blisters burst and out come men
Finding me in places I don't even know where to begin.
So the pattern continues and I learn to look within
To find my truth
And the journey of these men
For I am the jagged picture in a busted broken frame.
And all my past lovers
Are nothing but the same.
-L.C.A.
Monday, August 30, 2010
Head Games
+
Revisiting heartache
takes its journey into my soul.
again
yet again.
to be numb is expected
but that familiar feeling
revisits my heart
and yet i still ask
is it all in my head
or is it all in my heart?
For all of those shattered pieces left
aren't strong enough to mend
I visit this place of darkness
to many times in my head
The paralyzing longing to love another
loving you
my thoughts blind my heart from seeing
my brains twisted truth.
-L.C.A
Revisiting heartache
takes its journey into my soul.
again
yet again.
to be numb is expected
but that familiar feeling
revisits my heart
and yet i still ask
is it all in my head
or is it all in my heart?
For all of those shattered pieces left
aren't strong enough to mend
I visit this place of darkness
to many times in my head
The paralyzing longing to love another
loving you
my thoughts blind my heart from seeing
my brains twisted truth.
-L.C.A
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Radiating Truth
+
The essence of the universal energy
timeless oneness takes the form of a women who's heart radiates the truth of the sacred spirit from within. she sees the beauty of the world and just how small we truly are. The gift of life that is given, is the knowing within the human condition. This life is complex in the eyes of the masses, but for the ones present within the chaos of the inflicted, we are the light that radiates truth in this human condition.
-L.C.A.
The essence of the universal energy
timeless oneness takes the form of a women who's heart radiates the truth of the sacred spirit from within. she sees the beauty of the world and just how small we truly are. The gift of life that is given, is the knowing within the human condition. This life is complex in the eyes of the masses, but for the ones present within the chaos of the inflicted, we are the light that radiates truth in this human condition.
-L.C.A.
An Angel
+
Fighting against this cage
the voice of darkness
lurks in the brain
The mind is a feather,
drifting in the clouds of reality;
Traveling through
the dimensions of truth
The light that shines
amongst the universe's rays
brightens the haze
though the veil
of our present day
the angles whisper
the words we can never hear
the earth grounds us on our feet
while mother nature
cries with each rain drop fallen,
to weep
she cries not of hurt
but of love
to wash away the pain
in the hearts of those who are in
constant search.
-L.C.A.
Fighting against this cage
the voice of darkness
lurks in the brain
The mind is a feather,
drifting in the clouds of reality;
Traveling through
the dimensions of truth
The light that shines
amongst the universe's rays
brightens the haze
though the veil
of our present day
the angles whisper
the words we can never hear
the earth grounds us on our feet
while mother nature
cries with each rain drop fallen,
to weep
she cries not of hurt
but of love
to wash away the pain
in the hearts of those who are in
constant search.
-L.C.A.
Weep
+
Too sad to sleep
to empty to weep
paralyzed emotions
visit me tonight
holding on with familiarity
cradling my insecurities
-L.C.A.
Too sad to sleep
to empty to weep
paralyzed emotions
visit me tonight
holding on with familiarity
cradling my insecurities
-L.C.A.
Your Soul
+
The glorious dance
between two bodies
two souls
Your touch upon my
skin
Your taste upon my
lips
Your heart within my
soul
A magnetic spark
units
Fallen on the wings
of an angel
-L.C.A.
The glorious dance
between two bodies
two souls
Your touch upon my
skin
Your taste upon my
lips
Your heart within my
soul
A magnetic spark
units
Fallen on the wings
of an angel
-L.C.A.
Friday, May 7, 2010
The Key of Love
+
The energy that flows
Between two souls
Pure
Honest
True
today you have awakened
The sunrise in my heart
Following the sunset of night
Hours pass as lovers
Take the chance
To be
Pure
Honest
True
I think you hold the key
As the same key I hold
For you
-L.C.A.
The energy that flows
Between two souls
Pure
Honest
True
today you have awakened
The sunrise in my heart
Following the sunset of night
Hours pass as lovers
Take the chance
To be
Pure
Honest
True
I think you hold the key
As the same key I hold
For you
-L.C.A.
Saturday, May 1, 2010
The Veil of Truth
+
There is a light in the knowing
breaking through the seems of the veil
Present oneness within the veil
is the light within the knowing
Forces unfold what truth is
sending messages from our guide
our true nature
awakening the spirit within.
The
white radiating light
transforms
the
dark muddy waters
of self hatred, self disapproval and above all
the ego of self.
She will destroy the light
within
if self turns away from
the love within.
The light is
holding all the answers
to our existence
more powerful then the dark hole
or the reality
of the ego
you make love to these ideas
and toss yourself around in the beauty within the ugly
even when it hurts, you hold onto that negativity
because a part of you feeds off of that, and feels
safe, familiar.
Letting go
of the ego
one will see the difference
between living and living in between
the veil.
wake up, pierce through the eyes of knowledge
for that same very light is present
connect with the forces that have traveled before us
and within the light
they will guide you
and above all
fill you heart with more love
you could ever imagine
Love is the beauty within the spirit
the white light rests behind each and every heart
tap into it, speak to it, ask it for guidance
and all will be well
all is well
remember this,
love.
always.
and love will
return the self-less favor.
-L.C.A.
There is a light in the knowing
breaking through the seems of the veil
Present oneness within the veil
is the light within the knowing
Forces unfold what truth is
sending messages from our guide
our true nature
awakening the spirit within.
The
white radiating light
transforms
the
dark muddy waters
of self hatred, self disapproval and above all
the ego of self.
She will destroy the light
within
if self turns away from
the love within.
The light is
holding all the answers
to our existence
more powerful then the dark hole
or the reality
of the ego
you make love to these ideas
and toss yourself around in the beauty within the ugly
even when it hurts, you hold onto that negativity
because a part of you feeds off of that, and feels
safe, familiar.
Letting go
of the ego
one will see the difference
between living and living in between
the veil.
wake up, pierce through the eyes of knowledge
for that same very light is present
connect with the forces that have traveled before us
and within the light
they will guide you
and above all
fill you heart with more love
you could ever imagine
Love is the beauty within the spirit
the white light rests behind each and every heart
tap into it, speak to it, ask it for guidance
and all will be well
all is well
remember this,
love.
always.
and love will
return the self-less favor.
-L.C.A.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Tone
+
Your hostile verbal abusive ways
penetrates my ears, breaking down my body
and tearing open my heart to pieces of nothing.
Scattered on the floor of a closet room,
barley dressed
slave child I am
to a man who feels his importance is of
the only importance
For who am I to you
To him,
Nothing but a little girl
waiting to take care of his needs
yet the simple way of saying please
doesn't exist
Tossed into a corner
with no where to turn
My heart hurts and emotions
can't go anywhere but fill my skin with tears
To turn to another in hopes of sympathy
for what has been done was
ever so wrong,
You called him out on his actions
Yet your such a fucking coward
you pass it off and ignore what has been said
Your wife is one of us
a slave to you
I will not allow
This life you lead
control me
You are the example of life I choose not to live
The life I choose not to lead
God grant me strength
To walk in the chaos of this toxic house
for a home is nothing but that
You can only grow so much, before the walls of your character
breaks your spirit
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
yes
But a part of me is dead
and with that a life is born
One that I will create all of my own
and for when that day comes
only to love from a distance
your energy is not welcome
in my home.
-L.C.A.
Your hostile verbal abusive ways
penetrates my ears, breaking down my body
and tearing open my heart to pieces of nothing.
Scattered on the floor of a closet room,
barley dressed
slave child I am
to a man who feels his importance is of
the only importance
For who am I to you
To him,
Nothing but a little girl
waiting to take care of his needs
yet the simple way of saying please
doesn't exist
Tossed into a corner
with no where to turn
My heart hurts and emotions
can't go anywhere but fill my skin with tears
To turn to another in hopes of sympathy
for what has been done was
ever so wrong,
You called him out on his actions
Yet your such a fucking coward
you pass it off and ignore what has been said
Your wife is one of us
a slave to you
I will not allow
This life you lead
control me
You are the example of life I choose not to live
The life I choose not to lead
God grant me strength
To walk in the chaos of this toxic house
for a home is nothing but that
You can only grow so much, before the walls of your character
breaks your spirit
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
yes
But a part of me is dead
and with that a life is born
One that I will create all of my own
and for when that day comes
only to love from a distance
your energy is not welcome
in my home.
-L.C.A.
Monday, March 29, 2010
Visions of Truth
We are all a band of gypsies on the run.
Traveling amongst this dry land
of dead souls and lifeless bodies
Every star that falls from the sky
sheds a life once lived
The universal energy of all beings
transcends into all forms.
What we find to be living
is just a traveling star
searching endlessly for a new
destination
The body only follows the mind
and all the past journeys
are re-experienced and learned
in effort of
teaching the present.
The mind is held separate
exploring what reality truly is;
The purest form of white light
energy unfolding into the heart
pulsating the soul
with knowledge and wisdom.
Be present with the energy that the universe
sends through your body, The spirit above works
in ways you have no control over. Angels will tend to those
who need a helping hand, even those who are unable to see
and have lost the love within themselves.
There is something bigger then us out there
but to many it is our equal
The white light, so honest and pure.
A man came to me in a vision of deep meditation
His face was strong yet soft and welcoming
He held all the answers of life
being that pure white energy in all of our core centers
dark blues followed and beautiful doors awaited for my mind to travel through
white snow owls flew above
an image of myself, older and wise, pure, honest and real
The Tibetan eyes constant ,
snow covered mountains
at the highest peak
able to see inside my core
knowing I'm not walking alone.
-L.C.A.
Traveling amongst this dry land
of dead souls and lifeless bodies
Every star that falls from the sky
sheds a life once lived
The universal energy of all beings
transcends into all forms.
What we find to be living
is just a traveling star
searching endlessly for a new
destination
The body only follows the mind
and all the past journeys
are re-experienced and learned
in effort of
teaching the present.
The mind is held separate
exploring what reality truly is;
The purest form of white light
energy unfolding into the heart
pulsating the soul
with knowledge and wisdom.
Be present with the energy that the universe
sends through your body, The spirit above works
in ways you have no control over. Angels will tend to those
who need a helping hand, even those who are unable to see
and have lost the love within themselves.
There is something bigger then us out there
but to many it is our equal
The white light, so honest and pure.
A man came to me in a vision of deep meditation
His face was strong yet soft and welcoming
He held all the answers of life
being that pure white energy in all of our core centers
dark blues followed and beautiful doors awaited for my mind to travel through
white snow owls flew above
an image of myself, older and wise, pure, honest and real
The Tibetan eyes constant ,
snow covered mountains
at the highest peak
able to see inside my core
knowing I'm not walking alone.
-L.C.A.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
The Dance of Existence
+
What was once a crush will eventually diminish
into lifeless pieces scattered on the floor of existence.
They are not lasting butterflies, they are fire flies; an initial jolt of light,
eventually fading in time.
Sex is nothing more, kept seperate
from forming any connection to the soul.
All the other lovers where just a moment in time
shared, two bodies learning of its pleasures.
The soul makes love to another soul,
before the two souls can truly make love, together.
The love one makes within the soul
of another person
is an orgasm of the mind.
The heart pulsates with more meaning
and passionate understanding.
Thus your core is sparked
and butterflies continue to flutter inside.
-L.C.A.
What was once a crush will eventually diminish
into lifeless pieces scattered on the floor of existence.
They are not lasting butterflies, they are fire flies; an initial jolt of light,
eventually fading in time.
Sex is nothing more, kept seperate
from forming any connection to the soul.
All the other lovers where just a moment in time
shared, two bodies learning of its pleasures.
The soul makes love to another soul,
before the two souls can truly make love, together.
The love one makes within the soul
of another person
is an orgasm of the mind.
The heart pulsates with more meaning
and passionate understanding.
Thus your core is sparked
and butterflies continue to flutter inside.
-L.C.A.
Beside You
+
Glorious butterflies
will forever
continue
to do the dance of love
inside.
I can feel them dancing
every time you cross my mind.
When you are far, they are near.
Keeping me dancing
with not the slightest of fear.
-L.C.A.
Glorious butterflies
will forever
continue
to do the dance of love
inside.
I can feel them dancing
every time you cross my mind.
When you are far, they are near.
Keeping me dancing
with not the slightest of fear.
-L.C.A.
Friday, February 26, 2010
Made with Love
+
I want to pierce the surface of my skin,
watch the blood drip down my arm ever so slowly
falling to the floor.
Each drop makes a puddle of great despair.
& yet
I want to be noticed
but I no longer care.
-L.C.A.
I want to pierce the surface of my skin,
watch the blood drip down my arm ever so slowly
falling to the floor.
Each drop makes a puddle of great despair.
& yet
I want to be noticed
but I no longer care.
-L.C.A.
Mascaraed
+
When words fail to reach
my closed and lifeless lips.
A suffocation of the mind
leaves me numb and unable to feel.
Masked in confusion
in the shell that feels so miss shaped,
searching fearlessly
to fit in once and for all.
Borderline tears
So many personalities
trying to take the stage.
yet
my inner beauty is trapped
in a lifeless cage.
Everyday the mask reveals
what it is inside,
for today i am floating
lost in my thoughts,
heavy and incomplete.
I'm laking everything
I know I need to face
inside.
I can go in circles
trying to find balance
Between
the light
and the dark .
yet
my mask hides
everything
very well.
-L.C.A.
When words fail to reach
my closed and lifeless lips.
A suffocation of the mind
leaves me numb and unable to feel.
Masked in confusion
in the shell that feels so miss shaped,
searching fearlessly
to fit in once and for all.
Borderline tears
So many personalities
trying to take the stage.
yet
my inner beauty is trapped
in a lifeless cage.
Everyday the mask reveals
what it is inside,
for today i am floating
lost in my thoughts,
heavy and incomplete.
I'm laking everything
I know I need to face
inside.
I can go in circles
trying to find balance
Between
the light
and the dark .
yet
my mask hides
everything
very well.
-L.C.A.
My Drunken Despair
+
The negatives of self
The non-existent truth one finds so easy to put a face too.
The lies we are fed
from society
present
I want a man to make sweet love to me the way Jimmy Hendrix fucks his guitar.
With every key, an emotion pulsates
every blood filled vein.
present.
romanticizing of oblivion
drunken gaze
hold me and love me for a while
but please baby,
don't stay.
The rain is on it's way
You crave the storm cuming
from between my legs.
Wet.
and all I ever wanted,
Love,Loved.
paralyzed constantly
your's truly,
love sick.
-L.C.A.
The negatives of self
The non-existent truth one finds so easy to put a face too.
The lies we are fed
from society
present
I want a man to make sweet love to me the way Jimmy Hendrix fucks his guitar.
With every key, an emotion pulsates
every blood filled vein.
present.
romanticizing of oblivion
drunken gaze
hold me and love me for a while
but please baby,
don't stay.
The rain is on it's way
You crave the storm cuming
from between my legs.
Wet.
and all I ever wanted,
Love,Loved.
paralyzed constantly
your's truly,
love sick.
-L.C.A.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Womb Raider
+
The Hunter-Gatherer mentality
of a man
Imprisons a women when
taking her hand.
The seed of reproduction,
penetrates an
empty womb.
In constant search of fulfilling
the groom.
To bear a child nurtured by thee,
the hunter has hunted
and has satisfied his
needs.
For those unspoken truths
we call the dance of
life
The bride she waits,
robbed of her rights
for the vows of
LOVE
are monogamous lies.
-L.C.A.
The Hunter-Gatherer mentality
of a man
Imprisons a women when
taking her hand.
The seed of reproduction,
penetrates an
empty womb.
In constant search of fulfilling
the groom.
To bear a child nurtured by thee,
the hunter has hunted
and has satisfied his
needs.
For those unspoken truths
we call the dance of
life
The bride she waits,
robbed of her rights
for the vows of
LOVE
are monogamous lies.
-L.C.A.
Shadow Dancer
+
To rest upon this weary night
eyes wide open
enchanted
by a starry light.
The wondering mind
convicted of the most beautiful crime.
In holding nature hostage
forever chained and bound
by images in sight.
-L.C.A.
To rest upon this weary night
eyes wide open
enchanted
by a starry light.
The wondering mind
convicted of the most beautiful crime.
In holding nature hostage
forever chained and bound
by images in sight.
-L.C.A.
One More Time
+
I was so young I hadn't experienced life.
I had only experienced my addictions.
Each relapse became a blessing in a curse.
I needed to experience each fall, only to find myself waking up at the bottom.
-L.C.A.
I was so young I hadn't experienced life.
I had only experienced my addictions.
Each relapse became a blessing in a curse.
I needed to experience each fall, only to find myself waking up at the bottom.
-L.C.A.
Saving Grace
+
You came to me in the form of a bird. The love and light within your being entered into my soul. I was not searching for the answers though you found me when I was blinded by my demons.
There is a divine spirit that is present, some higher power, a light filled with a healing purpose for those of us who have fallen.
Its force is so strong and powerful that when present, tears of joy wash away years of hurt, and everything that has passed, is healed with love and non-judgmental understanding. All is is saved and all is well in the beauty of each day.
-L.C.A.
You came to me in the form of a bird. The love and light within your being entered into my soul. I was not searching for the answers though you found me when I was blinded by my demons.
There is a divine spirit that is present, some higher power, a light filled with a healing purpose for those of us who have fallen.
Its force is so strong and powerful that when present, tears of joy wash away years of hurt, and everything that has passed, is healed with love and non-judgmental understanding. All is is saved and all is well in the beauty of each day.
-L.C.A.
Touch
+
rose flesh hips
milky soft tits
trembling lips of passion
a romance of satisfaction.
-L.C.A.
rose flesh hips
milky soft tits
trembling lips of passion
a romance of satisfaction.
-L.C.A.
Lovers Ballad
+
All I want is to be your queen
to dance between the evergreens,
dressed in silk and vintage lace
to have your children,
my saving grace.
-L.C.A.
All I want is to be your queen
to dance between the evergreens,
dressed in silk and vintage lace
to have your children,
my saving grace.
-L.C.A.
Darkness Held Me Like A Friend
+
Self love, self worth.
I am here today free from
all self doubts, self pity,self disprovals.
To love ones-self is to be free.
Free from the hatred one finds so easy to obtain.
-L.C.A.
Self love, self worth.
I am here today free from
all self doubts, self pity,self disprovals.
To love ones-self is to be free.
Free from the hatred one finds so easy to obtain.
-L.C.A.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Purity
+
Purity is simplicity, you have to take this all in and let it carry you through your life. That light that comes with purity, It's all very spiritual. You are who you become out of what you experience, but to see beauty in its purist form is so beneficial to your sanity. What is beautiful? Spirit. Outer " beauties" are just a facade to the masses. It's of no importance to spirit. Inner beauty is spirit. It's what the person embodies and radiates to the world as a reflection of the connection they have with their core and the universe. Which is in direct response to the influence of their surroundings. Good and bad they are both influential, but its the training of the mind to remove our mental obsession and dependance on outer impurities and manufactured influences that fog our vision on understanding the human spirit on a common level. Truth is we are Human, cursed with the ultimate sin. Free will?
Yes, however its a matter of giving in to the obsession or withholding from it. One can practice that and learn to live in this world, It's all about balance. I've been in the darkest places and seen the worst means of mental existence and insanity, yet I choose to not fixate on the evil trying to puppet my life. Learning to balance the light with the dark. Life is a choice, a decision. I garentee that if you remove all substances, Alcohol, Drugs, Cigarettes, Sex, and Ego you will FEEL free and emotions will hit you in the face. Truth be known right in front of your eyes. But then again this is just my experience. The universe holds all the answers. Your guide and your heart follow, openly , willingly. Ego aside. True and pure oneness.
-L.C.A.
Purity is simplicity, you have to take this all in and let it carry you through your life. That light that comes with purity, It's all very spiritual. You are who you become out of what you experience, but to see beauty in its purist form is so beneficial to your sanity. What is beautiful? Spirit. Outer " beauties" are just a facade to the masses. It's of no importance to spirit. Inner beauty is spirit. It's what the person embodies and radiates to the world as a reflection of the connection they have with their core and the universe. Which is in direct response to the influence of their surroundings. Good and bad they are both influential, but its the training of the mind to remove our mental obsession and dependance on outer impurities and manufactured influences that fog our vision on understanding the human spirit on a common level. Truth is we are Human, cursed with the ultimate sin. Free will?
Yes, however its a matter of giving in to the obsession or withholding from it. One can practice that and learn to live in this world, It's all about balance. I've been in the darkest places and seen the worst means of mental existence and insanity, yet I choose to not fixate on the evil trying to puppet my life. Learning to balance the light with the dark. Life is a choice, a decision. I garentee that if you remove all substances, Alcohol, Drugs, Cigarettes, Sex, and Ego you will FEEL free and emotions will hit you in the face. Truth be known right in front of your eyes. But then again this is just my experience. The universe holds all the answers. Your guide and your heart follow, openly , willingly. Ego aside. True and pure oneness.
-L.C.A.
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