Heartaches Last Breath

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For all the times you pushed me away
treating me like a slave,
My wall grew
until it became so tall
I realized I no longer loved you.

Queen

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As time between lovers come and go,
the past remembrance of your light, your love, your heart, and your soul.....
The gypsy moon surrenders to my open heart.
Always remember, and thus never forget.
You, my love are but a queen.

-L.C.A.

A Song for You, Heartless Fool.

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A lovers ballad
I cry out for you

Singing my song of sadness
Bearing my soul too soon

A thief you stole my heart,
yet ungrateful of my love
you ran from the start.

A taste of what was to come
I knew what you were running from

A life time of healing
and lessons in love

Your only answer is to run
looking back on a love
that will never come

I thought I loved you,
a heartless fool

one day I hope you become a man
learning to love yourself
and the child within

and when your heart cries out
to make amends of your sins

It's too late- I'm already gone

you broke my heart
and I thank you for this song.

-L.C.A.

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If Love is what you are fighting for,
why do you always run?
-L.C.A.

Mask

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Surrendering to Love: Freedom to express yourself, underneath the mask that hides everything you really want to say. The lovers dance is a game we play, only to obtain the one we truly love. To go against your hearts urnings all to make him bite the bait. Why do we do the dance? Why can't we just LOVE, and surrender?
-L.C.A.

To My Despair

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I can't explain the reasons for my ways
I'll be taking it to my grave.
My hope for love is gone,
never knowing what goes wrong...

Loving lies multiple
When will this pain subside
Burnt out and victimized
Im never satisfied
Always asking why...

I hate this person inside
Who's ability to love
And be loved
Is a game of one to many lies
Will I ever find the missing piece
to comfort every last cry.

-L.C.A

gone.

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The hardest part is you left
with out putting up a fight
leaving me alone
with my tears,
wishing you would come back
and make it right.

-L.C.A

Charmer.

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If your purpose in life
Is to leave the ones whom you charmed
Hanging
On a line of thorns
Blood
Cold
Dark and numb
Tears can't empty out the feelings
Inside my heart
How is it you can walk away
So effortlessly
And not for one second look back
And say goodbye
Without you
My heart is only left
To cry
Faced down on a floor of
Broken lies
Hugging my knees
Wet warm breath
Dripping down my trembling legs
I can't move
Don't want to move
Breathing becomes
A gift
For the knots in my chest
Paralyze anything that's left.

Broken Frame

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All I've ever known
Is the day you fade away.
I can feel it coming
From a mile away
Every time I think I'm prepared
I fall right out from under my chair
Please don't leave me
I just don't understand
When all I ever needed was the love
Of a man.
They walk the path of my father
Present in his own self-disorder
And I'd wonder why you had me for your daughter
When all I ever needed was the love from a father
All my insecurities trouble me
Leaving me stranded
Alone
Waiting for my heart to find a home.
They say your family is your core
But for me its been nothing but
A huge sore.
Blisters burst and out come men
Finding me in places I don't even know where to begin.
So the pattern continues and I learn to look within
To find my truth
And the journey of these men
For I am the jagged picture in a busted broken frame.
And all my past lovers
Are nothing but the same.

-L.C.A.

Head Games

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Revisiting heartache
takes its journey into my soul.
again
yet again.
to be numb is expected
but that familiar feeling
revisits my heart
and yet i still ask
is it all in my head
or is it all in my heart?
For all of those shattered pieces left
aren't strong enough to mend
I visit this place of darkness
to many times in my head
The paralyzing longing to love another
loving you
my thoughts blind my heart from seeing
my brains twisted truth.

-L.C.A